The Inner Rebel Isn’t Always Wrong

There’s a difference between spiralling and deciding to go feral on purpose.

Last week I worked past 2:30am three nights in a row, and not because I had a deadline. I made a choice. My sleep got off track after over-scheduling myself on Monday and not being able to work out (I’d injured myself during an overly committed Celine Dion impression for my dog), and instead of trying to be “good,” I let my inner rebel take over.

Normally, this would’ve turned into an internal standoff. My inner HR department would have sent passive-aggressive memos about sleep hygiene and better choices, and my inner rebel would have rolled its eyes, refused to comply, and binge-watched something. Nobody would have won. I’d have ended up overtired, behind, and slightly ashamed of whatever algorithm rabbit hole I’d fallen into. But this time, I caught the pattern early. Instead of spiralling, I rerouted and politely told HR to F-off. And with no one to rebel against, the inner rebel got shit done.

This Isn’t About Failing at Discipline

This is not a lifestyle recommendation. I’m not suggesting you blow up your routine for kicks. However, sometimes this is the difference between crashing and taking a detour with intent. You just have to be willing to lose the fantasy of balance for a minute.

There’s research behind this. Cognitive flexibility improves when expectations are lowered and you feel like you’re making your own rules instead of following someone else’s. The inner rebel thrives on this because she craves autonomy and control.

Control Isn’t the Problem.

You probably know your own inner HR department. The one that narrates what you should be doing, constantly flags performance concerns, and is convinced that if you just tried harder to be consistent, everything would magically align. But that kind of management tends to trigger rebellion, not results. It doesn’t build momentum. It just sends you into a holding pattern where motivation is supposed to show up and never does.

A Different Kind of Inner Voice

What if you fired your inner HR department and handed things over to a voice with a little more edge? One that isn’t obsessed with being good, doesn’t judge how you got here, and actually knows how to work with what’s in front of you.

Instead of “You’re behind again,”
you hear, “Yeah, you’re late. Do you want to start now, or keep procrastinating and do it last minute tomorrow with stress and panic? I can schedule that. Your call.”

Instead of “You always do this,”
you hear, “Hi. Before you hit ‘watch next episode,’ you asked me to remind you exactly how it feels when you stay up way too late.”

Instead of “You should’ve planned better,”
you hear, “Let’s make a note to plan better next time. So now, want to wing it or put it off and dedicate some time to beating yourself up?”

Not a voice trying to fix you or narrating your flaws. Just the part of you that really gets you, tracks what actually matters, and reminds you of your options. So you feel in charge, and there’s nothing left to rebel against.
Control isn’t the problem. Feeling like you don’t have it is.

If you’re tired of fighting with yourself, coaching can help you shift the dynamic. Not by trying harder, but by making it easier. Because the truth is, relief will get you moving faster than shame ever will.